I'm wearing a shirt right now that says I Dig Trilobites! I found it at the Salvation Army. It makes me happy.

That's all.

Wow, what a glorious night. Actually, I should say wonderful past few nights. I've gotten to socialize & spend more time with my roommates & friends. It makes me happy & made me realize how much I missed all of it.

Tonight after work I went to a sideshow/burlesque show. It was so much fun. I am so envious of those women. They are so comfortable with their bodies & they look so classy doing what they do. & they are so happy doing it. They all smiled the whole time & you could tell it was genuine. I enjoyed myself so much. I want to do it. I know I never could, but I wish I could.
& tomorrow Erin & I, & maybe James & Brittany, are planning on taking part in swing lessons. Erin has these DVDs to teach us & it should be fun. I want to do fun things to exercise & move around. My problem with working out is partially because I get bored. Maybe dancing & doing yoga more often will help me with that.
I'm so happy with myself right now. I'm doing so well on watching what I eat & portion control. & I have a handslapper. Brittany is so good at it.

I'm very happy right now.

I just worked at ten hour shift today. Which is Black Friday. & I work in a shopping complex. FML.
I have a splitting head ache due to no food at all today. & I haven't drank enough water.
Now I will clean my room & listen to music & hopefully drink lots of water.
I need to lose weight. I can't stand looking in a mirror anymore. It makes me tear up just about every time.

Guess who gets to see Amanda Fucking Palmer!!! Me, hopefully, assuming Emily's mom doesn't think I am unqualified to drive her car. Erin is so great for passing this gift on to me.
Speaking of Erin, we put the Christmas tree up last night & had a really fun talk & it made me realize how much I miss her. & then after I went back to work & had picked Britt up from work we went to the beach to watch a fail meteor shower with her, James, & Bridget. I miss having friends & being social & all that. I'm just so tired & lazy all the time.

TV meme
1. Pick 10-20 of your favorite TV shows.
2. Go to IMDB and use the quote function to find a quote for each one.
3. List the quotes and have your friends guess the shows.
4. Strike them out as people guess them.

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So, if you haven't already, watch A Very Potter Musical. It's basically one of the most hilarious things, ever. It makes me so happy.

Beh, the apartment feels a little emptier now.
The two newest roommates, who have been here for two months or so, have moved out. I don't really know what happened. I just found out yesterday with no details behind it.

Besides that, all is fine. Yesterday was my three anniversary with Brittany. We celebrated with Erin & James because their anniversary is on Halloween. It was good times.

I'm feeling a little better today. We woke up kind of early & went to the vet to get the puppy & kitty their shot. The vet hospital I swear by does a vaccine clinic once a year. $3 for the rabies & then $15 for the rest with no office visit. You can't beat that.

When I took Brittany to work I hung around to read through the new Ace of Cakes book[btw, I love that show so much. I have a super nerd crush on everyone who works there, excluding Duff, but I do enjoy his laugh]. I read through the book for about two hours. Only if it wasn't $35, I would spend my hard earned money on it. Anyways, I made a friend while reading through the book. She's a foreign lady, I couldn't really pinpoint her accent. I was sitting in the Kids-A-Million area & she sat down so her two adorable girls could play. She also had a large book. Turns out it was the Ace of Cakes book. She noticed that I was reading it & started talking to me. She thought I was a baker. I told her I enjoy the program & bake for fun, nothing serious. She told her that she would love to open her own bakery but her babies are too young & her husband doesn't want to put them in daycare so she's stuck at home watching them all day. She said if she didn't bake she would go crazy from boredom. She told me I should experiment with fondant the next time I bake. That I look like the kind of person who would be really good at it. I explained to her that I'm not crafty & I have shaky hands that make detail hard for me to achieve. She still told me I should do it. I liked her. She was very encouraging. It made me sad that she couldn't go after what she wanted because of the life her husband wants for their family. Hopefully once her children are older she can do what she wants.

I'm going to knit some more tonight. I'm working on a hat for Erin. It has a really neat twisted rib pattern & then the body is this really pretty lace pattern. I hope I do the creator justice.

I'm going to try to get more involved in lj again. At least updating my journal. I hope that posting about what I was feeling helped a little, which means it can help in the future.

I want it to get cold. It's still in the seventies. It's almost November, I need the chill.

Hello livejournal.

Updating.

I've been really paranoid lately. Mostly while I'm driving. I, out of nowhere, get this horrible fear that my car is overheating & I have to pull over immediately. Of course, it never is. & of course I end up shaking like a shaking thing[thank you Georgia]. & it only ever happens when I am alone in my car.

I've been bummed lately. Maybe it's the change of the weather, I'm not sure. I know I want some time to myself to do things I enjoy. I have a little right now. I cleaned the apartment, did some knitting, all while listening to music that I've missed. I would love time to be lazy for a little bit. I don't get that. If I'm not working I'm making dinner or walking a dog or doing laundry or doing dishes or cleaning myself or talking to my mom on the phone. It seems like there are always a million things I have going on, none of which are for me. I don't even feel like sleeping is for me anymore. It's now become something I do so I have energy for my day. I know, I know, be happy I have a job, be happy I have a life. I am, but I want the life to be for me, I guess, & not for those around me. I love pleasing people. I feel like I do a fairly good job of it. I do whatever anyone asks of me, short of murder, & I feel unappreciated. No one says thank you. At work, the customers just take their change or drink & walk out. I am always polite & say have a nice day, & very rarely do I get a genuine response of, you too. I feel unappreciated in my household. I feel like I always have my hands in dishwater & am scrubbing counters & I never really get any kind of notice for doing it. I like cleaning, it puts me at peace some, but I would still enjoy some kind of gratification for what I'm doing.

I miss my roommates, too. I never see them. & my friends, any of them really. I just don't have time for anything because I'm trying to maintain everything.

Shut up, Cat. No one wants to hear you whine.

I bought new work clothes with coworkers & Britt & felt good about myself. It was nice.

I think my roommates don't like me anymore.

☆ Open your iTunes
☆ Put to shuffle mode
☆ Find pictures of the first 20 artists. If repeated, skip it.
☆ Have your friendlist guess the 20 artists.

1.
( Guess who! )

Hello all. It's been a while since I've been here. I read journals, I just like to wait to update so it seems like much more is happening in my life than there really is.

Lets see...remember Swarley, the sick kitten? He ended up passing away. The vet said he had some kind of birth defect that was causing fluid to build around his organs. It was very sad. We have a new kitten now, not a replacement, just us moving on. His name is Dr. Simon Tam & he's super adorable & kind of mean. He likes to suckle on ears when he's all sleepy & cuddley.

Um, my car blew up again. About a week after getting the heater core thingy fixed. My alternator went out on the busiest highway in Myrtle Beach. Everyone was all pissed because I couldn't move my car at all. It cost a lot to get fixed but Lucy works & that's all that matters to me. Hopefully that will be the last of the car problems for a while.

I finally got promoted! It happened kind of fast. I went & talked to my store manager about being promoted because one of our shifts was transferring to Chicago & he was like, we don't have a position available but work on these things & we'll get you there. Then I worked with him like, two days later & he was like, oh BTW, fill out this background check for your promotion. & I was like what, SQUEE! So I was trained in two days & that's that. I am a manager type of person with a pretty nice pay raise.
The busy season will be ending soon & that is suckish because it means less hours but this promotion has guaranteed me a certain number of hours each week which is nice.

We bought two hamsters a while ago & they are super adorable. One of them really outgoing & he other kind of shy. & we started to hear them playing, or what we thought was playing, at night. & then one day I came home & the outgoing guy had bitten the shy guy's leg pretty badly & he was in bad shape. I did the best I could but he was dead the next morning. A very sad predicament. I had to talk Brittany into keeping the mean one. She wanted to set him free because was a murderer.

Oh, & we have two more roommates! That is six of us in a three bedroom apartment. The only thing I've noticed different is dishes get dirty much faster. It's nice having Bridget & Alex around. They are good times.

Okay, I will be back in another month or so I suppose.

Oh, hai guys! It's been a month & a week since I've updated. Things have happened, some good & some bad.

We moved into our apartment, it's nice. I love my roommates, even if I'm an old person & go to sleep when they are just starting to enjoy their day. Britt's family visited & it was nice. Her mom was really awesome & bought me shoes I've wanted forever & some pants & stuff. & her Aunt Bev & Uncle Den bought us a dining table which is pretty. & a regular couple at work gave us three chair for it. How nice! Oh, & Angel is here now. She's doing really great. James doesn't like her very much, but I think she's growing on him. Besides that, the move in was pretty uninteresting. Our upstairs neighbors herd elephants for a living. Our neighbors enjoy being trashy & throwing chicken bones all over the lawn. Angel enjoys trying to eat them & then we have to pull the bones out of her mouth. Besides that, it's all good.

WE HAVE A KITTEN! His name is Swarley or Swarlos or The Esteemed Doctor Robert George Chase Esquire. I like all of his names. He's an orange tabby & a bit of a trouble maker but makes up for it in the adorable.

I've gone through two fist so far. Britt surprised me with a gorgeous Beta & a cute little set-up for him one night. He died after two days. His name was Goliath & I loved him very much. Then I went & bought a fan kind of Beta & he is also gorgeous & his name is Rover & he's doing very well. I also love him very much.

HARRY POTTER COMES OUT SO FREAKING SOON YOU GUYS!!!! I'm setting up this huge get together of coworkers/friends for a midnight showing of it. I'm buying pregnant-poor Ashley her ticket because she is poor & having an incredibly rough time & I want to do something nice for her before she has baby Tessa sometime in July.

Um, Britt & I are planning on getting two Fancy Rats within the next two weeks. I'm so excited about this. I've wanted a pair of rats for so long & I'm finally getting them. I have to pick out a fancy name for my rat because he will be friggin' classy & fancy.

Bad things that are happening, you ask?

Well, the first thing to come up was my cat at home. My sister called me one day at work telling me she was hurt. Funny walk with the back legs or something. She didn't seem like she was in pain or anything so we weren't sure what was going on. My mom ran her mouth about cancer, but I didn't think that was is. Then I looked up symptoms for diabetic cats & she kind of matches some of them. My mom took her to the vet this morning. They say the funny walk is because she's lost like eight pounds & she's lost some muscle mass. They still did some blood work to see if she is diabetic/see why she lost that much weight. Now we must wait for the results.
Also, Tuesday night after seeing My Sister's Keeper, the most depressing movie ever btw, I was dropping the Jen-Face at home when my sister noticed this yellow fluid in my passenger floorboard. Mmmmkay. Call my dad, says the heater core is busted, told me to get it towed. He said he knows a way to bypass the heater core so I wouldn't have to spend a billion dollars to get Lucy fixed, so I say I'm gonna call around, get prices, then figure it out. Turns out it would have cost anywhere from $250-$450 to get it fixed. I decided to go without a heater during the winter & do the redneck fix for about $11.
On the same night Swarlos got sick. He was all drooly & wobbly & generally pretty listless. We thought maybe it was distemper. Erin worked her mom's magic on him, the next day he was a little better, but still not himself. The day after, voila! Magic was worked & he is all the better. We think maybe, because he was so young, the bug spray the pest guy used made him ill. Dunno, s'all good now.

Um, dunno what else to write, as if you want me to write more.

Ah,we move out tomorrow. Signing the lease at 1-ish & then moving things. I'm pondering the idea of doing a day in my life tomorrow. Guys I am so freaking excited it's crazy! & Britt got a new job that pays her a ton more than KMart & will make her happy. & I made chai cupcakes for Irene's bday & she loved them & OMG!

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I basically had the perfect night last night. We all just planned on having just another dumpster diving mission but it turned into lots of other adventures. While waiting for James to get off work we decided to finally do our gorilla gardening. We walked all through Erin's neighbor planting & dropping seeds. There's even a couple of cantaloupe babies hanging around. That was so much fun. One guy saw us taking pictures & he asked us what was worth having it's picture taken, the ground? & we told him we were planting flowers & he approved wholly. After that we did the dumpster diving thing, with no luck. I think we've all basically accepted that we won't ever find much but we do it for the adventure & the fun of digging through trash. We did find out that Piggly Wiggly does not have a compactor & if we can find out their pick-up day we might be about to get some foods out of them. But here comes the best part, definitely.

Erin was dying to show us this activity she found out at Market Commons. We get there & she's just so cute all hopping up & down saying it's so great. It turns out to be this exercise game with lights. You have to run around & hit the buttons & beat the people you're playing with. Oh my god, it is so delicious. We ran around for at least an hour & a half just playing this game. We've decided to go & play two or three nights a week for at least an hour. I think this can really get Erin & myself motivated to be active & help us lose weight, because as Erin said a few times last night, "It's fun & free!"
I think my favorite part of the entire night was us rolling down this massive hill. Usually I'm really terrified to do things like that around people for fear of my shirt rolling up or pants coming off, or something like that. I didn't have anything holding me back from rolling down that hill last night. It was so much fun, like a mild roller coaster. All of us did it & it was so great. I didn't feel uncomfortable at all, I just laughed & laughed.

I have pictures from the night, I just can't find my USB cord. I will have those up by tonight.

Okay, time to make a cup of coffee & wait for Britt to wake up.

Guys, I think everyone should do a dumpster dive mission sometime in their lives. I enjoy it so much. We have gone a few times now, & even though we haven't had much luck we have found some things & it's always so much fun to do something that feels like slightly illegal with people I adore. Last night we found tennis balls & halloween decorations. We did find a chair, which we went through great & terrifying lengths to check out, but it was busted beyond repair. We had a cop drive by while we were digging through A.C. Moore's dumpster. haha, it was so much fun.

Anyways, I have a few pictures from last night.
( Here. )

Yay! My mom has a job interview tomorrow!!

Blarg to the nth degree. My mom got fired, again. This shit hole place she was working at was so strict about their overages/shortages that she was $1.03 over in her money & they fired her. This is why corporate business makes me want to vomit all over the place. Fuck their bullshit ideals, money gets stuck together & sometimes people mess up. Cut them some slack & take the stick out of your tightwad asses.